making each day count

2009-04-04T01:23:00.006+08:00

SOT Week 1 ended off with Holy laughter untill stomach cramp....

Thank God for Pst. Phil Pringle for doing the opening!!!
Orientation wasn't too dreadful... lol

Even though i have to handle both bible school and exams at the same time...
i know that i'm able to make it.
No stress is gonna break me.
Whatever outcome it may be, will be.
I'm not gonna think about failure because i know i'm gonna succeed!

I may not be the smartest person around,
but, i've got the Smartest Tutor On Earth with me :P

During my time in SOT, i want to have a better relationship with God, learn how to pray stronger, be more focus, have holy discipline, study more about the Word and be able apply it while i'm still in school.
Yeah!
That's what i have in mind now.. at least...

2009-03-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

HO LA!!!!!!
I know i left off at a pretty bad note..
but i just want to say it's all good now...
PRAISE GOD!!!!
SOT is just A WEEK AWAY!!!!!
ARGgggggh...
I'm ALL EXCITED!!!!
about what God has in store for me
about the people i'm gonna meet
about the stress level i need to handle
it all comes down to one more week........ gee...

but i'm definitely not excited about orientation... i hope it won't go too ~WILD~

btw recently i'm quite into this korean rock band call F.T Island...
the members are all very young.. and the lead singer has got a VERY mature and rock voice...
wow and his look... it makes all the girls jealous....
it's good to be young.....

oh well i need to go back to my studies now!
i'll try to update... but i doubt.. since i'll be SUPER BUSY now...
F.T Island Rocks! Junsu Rocks! Jasmine Hwaiting!

2009-02-15T05:12:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling troubled and confused. :((
it's not because it's valentine's day and i'm still single... not the biggest problem to me...
Something happened, and i'm starting to reconsidering about going SOT this year.

troubled about money money money and more money......

Now i'm just waiting for my blood test results and waiting for my dear laptop to comeback from HP and

pray for a miracle....

it's sunday morning and i'm still very sad... blah blah blah blah blah blah........

2009-01-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

i'm so in love with Andrea Bocelli's voice! it's just so Amazing! very calm and smooth.... suitable for a crazy world i'm in....
Gone are the days with screaming rock, heavy metals, alternative... haha.. gosh.. i sound so old...

anyway.. these days i'm just trying to prepare myself for exams.. it's gonna be a super tough year so i'm just wanna start everything right... that means i will not be talking to myself so often in this page... i'm still praying that someone would sponsor SOT for me..

for now i'm just thankful that everyday God is just healing me... i feel so much healthier... i dun remember visiting the doc for the past 6 months.. woohoo...

For those having problems sleeping... i suggest you listen to Andrea Bocelli's song.. keep is very soft... and it'll just bring you to wonderland.. haha not so much if you keep trying to understand what he's singing... he's Italian you see...

if i'm still not married by 30.. i'm flying to Italy, Florence... get a husband there and be a permanent resident... lol

2009-01-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

Suddenly i feel like fast-forwarding the time to days when i got excellent grades for my degree, when i got a well-paid job, when i have enough money to go travelling alone - somewhere in Canada.. i must say i'm super privileged already to have travelled a lot... and i really shouldn't be complaining... but... i just want to visit North America... and i just thought Canada would make the safest place to travel alone... Maybe in the mean time i'll just try to save enough money to go honeymoon there... lol.. either there or Hawaii... Germany is not too bad either if i speak that language too..

For now... i can only imagine...

2008-12-31T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hello! We're an hour away from 2009 and i'm stuck at home.
i kinda enjoy the solitude though... hmm.... well not yet when my mom is still awake...

Woohoo... really excited about the coming year... i can almost smell it... and the countdown show on tv is kinda spoiling my mood... hohoho...
anyway these are the last words for the year...

FIRSTLY, I want to thank God for such an adventurous year.. it's been quite like a rollar coaster ride... being in a new ministry, growing closer to You, making new friends, making decisions - good or bad... come what may You've been my pillar of support for me, giving me love, hope and joy when i found none. I'm just thankful that God, You're always closer than my breath and I just want to be prepared for the year that's coming within an hour... and again i pray that i'll continue to grow more beautiful both on the inside (spiritually) and outside(physically) and get a boyfriend in 2009... hahaha!!

Secondly i wanna thank pastor Kong and his wife Sun for being such a role model, for making such an impact in the decisions i make, for shaping me to be the person God wants me to be and always encouraging all of us to challenge our limits.

Thirdly, i wanna thank my family for providing for me even in this time of economic crisis, for my studies especially - i think it's only time like this i get the opportunity to thank them for providing.

Lastly, i wanna thank all my friends, for being such a wonderful companion in the year 2008 - there are so many of you.... New ones, old ones - too many to name... i remember every single one of you, i may have upset a few of you, angered a few of you, disappointed a few of you.. i just wanna hope that you forgive me and i'll try to be a better person next year..
MOstly i wanna thank a special friend - NOVIYANSI!!!!!! for being such a darling.. i know i've disappointed you more often than the rest, well thats when you know you're closer to me than the rest. But i'm really thankful for STILL having you around

Anyway... HAPPY NEW YEAR
Happy 2009... for a greater year that is to come in seconds... ;) see you next year!

2008-12-17T03:46:00.002+08:00

i refuse to use the word "stress" from now on...
lets say.. i'm just very pressured... sounds more positive...

it's always good to record down what you prayed for... cause you never know things will just come in your way OUT OF A SUDDEN!!!!
Today i really felt like i got hit by a bus.. like BANG!!!!!!
Well partly my fault, should have see it coming...

as usual i'm involved in an outside church kind of gigS.. One at suntec and one at jalan tiga... my initial thought was that there will be at least 20ppl in a group... but i'm SO SO OSOSOsoososos wrong.... it's in a smaller group of 15 at suntec and 6 at JT... it's almost as good as singing in a band or some parts solo.... it's like Super Junior at Suntec and Shinhwa at JT.....

never mind that... anyway... i'm going all out for these man... like giving my 300% if i have to..
it's time to prepare my stones to attack the giants... tui tui tui....

to sing in front of the pros... is really very intimidating....
but with CHC's name at stake... i just have to practice practice practice practice practice...
I'm praying for clear directions and wise management of my finances, divine strength and miracles to happen this week

i think i'll be going to expo/jw for the rest of the week.... transport fees are gonna...be so cheap i'll laugh till i cryy~~

2008-12-13T02:17:00.001+08:00

As much as it takes a lot of effort to encourage the discouraged....
it's scary to see a group of it...
even more when they refused to be encouraged...

We are not of this world, we are not in heaven yet, there's a place right in between heaven and earth... and in between the middle and the world.. i found another place....The (lukewarm) grey area....

There's a season for everything....
we've been discouraged for way too long
and now its the time to get a hold of yourself and move on...
don't feel discourage for the discouraged...

aren't you tired of being discouraged? i am..
come to my house to experience more...
my only encouragement for that is: " it can't get any worse.. woohoo~"

and i've learnt... it's not a good thing to make "teasing people" a habit...
it's not funny to a person who is a decade or 4 decade older than me...
and certainly not a joke when its not used properly...
it creates a time-bomb waiting to explode...
and my room has always been my air-raid shelter until one day i found a better place for hiding
war has been going on for way too long in the family...
BUT God saved the day...

P.S i don't like dogs that appears out of a sudden and starts running around barking... NAE GA NOR MU SI LORH!!!!!!!! WW III begins when dogs suddenly start yelling... i mean, barking at Jasmine.

and there's a peace treaty when there's Green Tea....

2008-12-05T02:37:00.002+08:00

I'M A RICH PERSON...

That's what i thought when i was young...
and it's gonna be a reality some day... ON EARTH!!!

I've been visualising it for the longest time and planning how its gonna be done...
Somehow i got an idea but... now it's not the time yet....
BUT THANK GOD FOR SUCH A BLESSING...
just knowing that its
C.O.M.I.N.G S.O.O.N!!!!!!!!

i think 3 weeks ago when my parents were away for holidays..
no one was at home in the morning... i was sleeping soundly in the living on a sofa...
and suddenly i felt disturbed... and i woke up and started praying....
and it went on for 2 hours... Woahho... you know how when its started you can't stop that kind...
I was praying and visualising my family's salvation and i could see that the walls of the house are expanding... Like FINALLY it's time to move to a bigger house... the time is coming whereby my storehouse is gonna be too small for my treasures to contain...

and then on wed, during bible study, lesson was on "How to be led by the Holy Spirit?" and it's fun fun fun, very interesting (go find out yourself if you want to know more.. HOHOHO).... at the end of it we're supposed to pray for someone preferably whom you don't know of... and BINGO.. the person prayed exactly what bothers/burdens me the most and in descending order some more... my family, my business then my studies... She also discerned that my house is gonna be bigger... Praise God... it's like a confirmation after another confirmation... i welcome more of it.... V^^V i guess that's why i'm feel so excited!!!!!!! (you can actually try asking me if you want to know more about it, i don't bite anymore...)

"Jasmine AH!!!!! Be PREPARED"

i finally did something out of the norm... i registered online for SOT... ARHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S HAPPENING!!!!!! THE HAPPENING...

i've been counting down to that day... 17 Weeks and 2 Days (121 days) to 30th March 09
by then i'm hoping to have fulfilled my BF and prepared myself for exams already....

and then it's gonna be like WAR!!!! Battlefield at EXPO for 4 weeks in May....
then after that i can enjoy!!!!! Holiday for my spirit being.... HO HO HO!!!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Study study study study study study study study study.....
i need to be wise.. and prepare my weapons with God's wisdom and knowledge... trust HIM and gather rations for BF
BECAUSE... narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

2008-11-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

A NEW BEGINNING.....

i've decided to leave ALL my past behind...
and look forward to the future...

i'm letting go, and letting GOD heal me physically and spiritually...

In the months to come, i need to be a more organise and proactive person.. (because too many people complaining about it already.) I need to be focus and prepare myself for exams next year and S.O.T 09!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whatever that is about to happen is up to HIM....

i need to visualise it and believe i can do it!!!!

Ai Soo Yi Da!!!!!

2008-11-25T23:23:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO~~~ Finally Our very first ASIA CONFERENCE is over!!!
Why am i so excited?
Because it marks the beginning of all things new...
i can almost hear heaven having their own private party.. LOL...

even though i've been serving most of the days...
i'm not spiritually dry... the presence of God is so tangible, no one could hide from it...
Just by looking at the crowd, i'm just amazed at the no. of pple who are hungry and thirsty for God..
and Finally i got my healing during benny hinn's service...
even though his teachings doesn't really go in-line with our church but he is still a man of God and i believed and visualised God's healing on me... Praise the Lord!

i'm just summarising what i've went through last week.. and a few words like this doesn't justify what i've experienced... some may not even understand what i've just said... but in my spirit i feel very excited.. and i dunno why either... just something exciting is about to happen in a few months time.. i just hope it is what i hope it is.... HAHhahahaha.... maybe its just Christmas....

oh well~~
Greater things has yet to come...
and it's time to

GO BACK TO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL.....

Be anxious for nothing but but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God!!! and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

2008-10-29T05:32:00.003+08:00

If you love me... Spend Q.U.A.L.I.T.Y time with me..
lol.. thats what the quiz said...
i guess that explains why what happened happened...
but its all in the past... now things are good as it is...
anyways...
True enough, i think receiving gifts is the least important...
sometimes it can get kinda embarrassing to even try to pretend to like the gift (not that i've received a lot either), BUT then... i really appreciate the intentions... :D somethings you just can't buy it with money...

Love is not in the air..
but its not too far away either...
at least there's a direction i'm heading to
and i'm not defeated yet

all i can say is.. Prayers work wonders

2008-10-29T05:30:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2008-10-23T01:17:00.001+08:00

i was watching this movie called "Perfume: The Story of a Murderer" on cable channel ... yah lah yah lah.. i'm a tv addict... Anyway that's beside the point. I'm more intrigued by the perfume part... and now i roughly understand the process of making it... hahha... but too troublesome to make one myself...

Generally i like the movie..a bit morbid, kinda unrealistic and psychotic but it was very artistic. the set is in the 18th century of France, kinda reminds me of the french revolution...being amused by the fake wigs themselves.

Whats more interesting is that i realised that smell is something i subconsciously pay attention to and i'm surprised myself on the way i describe it sometimes. honestly... i usually stay away from people with fermenting smell backpacks/shirts/hair. i mean who don't? sometimes i think when we get used to a smell, our body naturally adjust to that scent such that we won't be able to differentiate it. LETS SAY hypothetically, if some one smells like dandruff for a year, i feel that that person can only differentiate things that is more stinky/fragrant that dandruff and that person won't be able to tell how dandruff smells like... well thats my theory through participant observation. You know how when we visit people's house and it smells different and the owner finds it normal...

There's a reason why people prefers chocolate to poop.

Same colour, different smell

As trivial as it sounds, but its one of those things that makes the first impression like memories being captured.. it sets the atmosphere to our emotions and feeling

As important as other senses.. remember our nose is not just for breathing....

2008-10-21T02:58:00.006+08:00

i was watching The Oprah Winfrey Show (Oct 07 ep.) and the topic was about how to handle death...
It's a dreadful topic to talk about and i was very inspired by this person named Randy Pausch...
He was an American professor of computer science, human-computer interaction and design at Carnegie Mellon University in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He was a father of 3 children, at the time of publish, they were only aged 6, 3 and 1 years old... He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and only had months to live when he gave his "Last Lecture" and it was really about achieving your childhood dreams. He said "most of the time, our greatest regrets are not the things we've done but the things we have not done..."
The last lecture in Sept 07 started with 400 students. Which later was brought to the limelight through internet- youtude ,media coverage and even written book and he was featured in Times magazine as one of The World's Top 100 most influential people. Fame was not his original intention, but rather all these things which he had done through these months was for 3 person - and they were his children. He focused more on what his children is going to lose than on what he's going to lose.
He passed away on 25 July 2008.
With only less than 10 months, a passion and love for his children started this process of saying goodbye which impacted millions and millions of people all over the world. Time will pass when everyone forgets such a person. But not to ,at least, his children.

He's such a rare gem for only one reason i can think of and that is the Love for his family... with good intentions and was not afriad to show it and say it and made them understand.

It's almost crazy to think that "oh you're not talking to me and you're always angry all the time. but i know you love me and that's your style of showing it"
Kids ,more than anything else, needs to know that their parents love them.
right~ i'm no longer a kid...

What is Love then?

Love is about building a relationship. Givings to others. be it time, money, material goods, understanding....
Thats what it is.

if you're intersted to read more this is one of the many links available...
"A Final Farewell" http://online.wsj.com/article/SB120951287174854465.html

Personally i think everyone should read this....

2008-10-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

Yippy!!! The first day of being 21- legally an adult...
Wow!!! Time really FLYS~~~~~~
i'm 2nd year already.... Arh!!!!!!

To avoid miserable (for me to say its miserable - its so miserable i felt like crying) cake i got last year...For me cake is THE HIGHLIGHT yo.... So this year, i ordered my birthday cake...
YAY!! Happy Birthday to Myself. Its so pink i'm SO satisfied.....

Anyway... i'm really truly BLESSED!!!!! during this week...
Family, relatives, friend and even the Government is so generous in their giving.
Thank you for all your greetings and givings!!!!
i really appreciate it...

You know what my mom just said to my aunt?

"Don't give her any hong bao la, she got enough already....."

DOT DOT DOT................................ HUH??
this kind of thing where got enough want? hahahah
but its more bless to give than to receive

In case you're wondering why i'm not having a party....
well i think i'll more likely to celebrate when i'm 25??
when i'll be half a century old
when it makes more sense to celebrate..
when the idea of having a party is drilled into my head....
when i can afford it...

why 21?? i dun understand....

Lastly I just wanna Thank God for guidance in every situation,
For teaching me how to love and give, for faith to believe, for faith that brings the courage to reach out to my vision and dreams...

I'm really excited for the things that is about to come.. greater works have yet to be done
I pray that i'll be in season in eveything i do, and its of things in God's will...

i'm going get my beauty sleep now~~~ grow gracefully
i'm going to cut down the usage of comp too...

Keyaki at PanPac

Scanner/Printer/Copier - from daddy

2008-09-25T04:30:00.002+08:00

For Better days have yet to come....
and Greater things are still to be done....

Like Sons and Daughters, We clean The House when there's a need to.
Regardless if its public holidays or not.....
We don't take leaves from our duties do we?
It's Natural!!!!!

All i can say is....
Things are just getting MORE and MORE Exciting!!!!!!
...... and it'll last for more than 50 years!!!!!
V^^V.
V for Victory!!!
Be more than a Conqueror!
Rawr!!

2008-09-24T04:14:00.003+08:00

YO Ho!!!!!

Recently i've started to do something widely known as "Vision Board" whereby you draw/cut out pictures of the things you want to achieve and paste it on the board... i think it kinda helps you remember all your goals at one glance whenever you look at it.

School started last week and this term all my lecturers are very approachable - which is good!! and the lessons are so much more interesting... hehe...dunno why none of them are chinese

Hmm... i can feel excitement in the air!!!! Hahahha Why?
well when you know you're doing all the right things and good things are coming along your way.. won't you feel excited too?
i think i'm moving in the right direction - from now till the next year my focus will be my studies... i'm not gonna work for the time being(Shiok!)....at least till of may'09
even though there's bf and sot and bills... unless i dun spend at all... even with careful budgeting and saving,.... there will still be uncertainties.... Oh welll~~~~~~
God's grace is sufficient!!!!

if we wait for perfect moment to do something, then that something will never be done.
and sometimes there's just too much waitings, and too little doings...
"Wait and see" became "Do Nothing" or "Forget It"......
Of course i'm not saying we all should be like anxious spider when we want to achieve something... but Timing is very important!!! and most of the time... i'm just waiting for things to happen..... Not Good....

Slowly i've learnt how to handle challenges, disappointments, frustrations and fears that are always coming from different directions... like the song says.... you speak to these mountains and move them to the oceans...
phummmm.... into the deeeeeeppppppp blue sea....
which has a sign board that says...
"NO FISHING"

2008-09-16T15:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was REALLY a weird day for me... FREAKY morning!
its a longggg story... somehow on my way to school i was stucked in the highway, wallet-less... carrying only 80 cents.... walked passed two graveyard... then finally took refuge in syl's place. In short, my entire plan for the day was TOTALLY in a mess. But still managed to swim and cook my pasta.... Just as i thought i could finally end the day with a good rest at home... i was informed about some meeting with pastor and of course i chose to go... like how often do you get to see pastor 3 days in a row? christmas?
during the meeting, pastor showed us a video on a tour around a church in taiwan... and you can really see the fruits of their labour; they were giving whatever they can offer to the church... whatever talent they have, they use it, improve on it, glorify God with it...
i feel that we are capable of doing more, we've been reminded to use our talents, be creative... all the time... it shouldn't be something new~~ but i feel that the most important thing that pastor touched on is our health. Exercising everyday is like praying everyday. Being healthy is also a way to glorify God...
Maybe i'm talking to myself... it's a lifestyle kinda thing that i'm willing to change... still trying...
i'm gonna jog every morning from now on...

2008-09-09T23:11:00.001+08:00

my day today started with the tree top walk which was about 11-12km (include the wrong route me and syl took)... to women whom had never been through army trainings, i think its quite an achievement.. went back to work and clocked 3 hours and at the end of the day choir prac was cancelled.... instead i attended a funeral service...
friend's friend whom i don't know... yet again i felt led to go there to support.
and again and again and again and again
i was reminded to cherish the people close to me
i was reminded that the last days of my parents are getting nearer by the days.
I may not know when... less than 10? 20? 30 yrs?
and it seems like God knows that i won't be able to take it if the day comes too sudden...
... felt like a preparation.... which made me really~ really worried.... but then again...
i'm not going to give up, i'm not letting them go, i just pray that God will give them some time to open up their hearts to jesus.
Thank God for companion, my night didn't end with me feeling too depressing :))

2008-09-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

JasMEAN: DEFEATED YET?

Jasmine: Nope!

JasMEAN: WHY?

Jasmine:

ps. 56:3
whenever i am afraid, i will trust in You.

cause God is for us.
and if He is for us,
WHO? can be against us???

well most of the time, its ourselves....
He cannot force His will upon our lives
Grace come upon all but not all receive it.
He's looking for what we believe
what we have faith for
what we are willing to embrace in our heart

out of our heart, we establish the borders of our life.
guard your heart; cause out of it determines our achievements

BELIEVE!!!
Get to work
Grow your faith!!

not just temporary faith.
count the cost

Have the faith of God

2 cor 16-18:
"therefore we do not lose heart. even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. for our LIGHT AFFLICTION, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory. while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. for the things whoch are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal"

2008-08-28T08:41:00.004+08:00

Chirstians are humans too
we are not perfect people
we all make mistakes
We're all living this lifetime for the first time
I once heard someone said that God don't look at our past.
Well i'm sure He looks into our heart.
Where are we to hide from His presence?
He knows everything.
and we ought to guard our hearts.
because we're not living in a perfect world...
people trip even on flat surfaces
anyone can fall, even our leaders...
There's why all the more we should pray for our church leaders especially for pastor kong...

I was led to proverbs 21 during one of the morning pm... and i was actually praying for a wise and understanding heart like Solomon :P, praying that "He may incline our hearts to Himself, to walk in all of His ways, and to keep His commandments and His statutes and His judgements"

Proverbs 21 (NLT)

1 The king’s heart is like a stream of water directed by the Lord;
he guides it wherever he pleases.

2 People may be right in their own eyes,
but the Lord examines their heart.

3 The Lord is more pleased when we do what is right and just
than when we offer him sacrifices.

4 Haughty eyes, a proud heart,
and evil actions are all sin.

5 Good planning and hard work lead to prosperity,
but hasty shortcuts lead to poverty.

6 Wealth created by a lying tongue
is a vanishing mist and a deadly trap.[a]

7 The violence of the wicked sweeps them away,
because they refuse to do what is just.

8 The guilty walk a crooked path;
the innocent travel a straight road.

9 It’s better to live alone in the corner of an attic
than with a quarrelsome wife in a lovely home.

10 Evil people desire evil;
their neighbors get no mercy from them.

11 If you punish a mocker, the simpleminded become wise;
if you instruct the wise, they will be all the wiser.

12 The Righteous One knows what is going on in the homes of the wicked;
he will bring disaster on them.

13 Those who shut their ears to the cries of the poor
will be ignored in their own time of need.

14 A secret gift calms anger;
a bribe under the table pacifies fury.

15 Justice is a joy to the godly,
but it terrifies evildoers.

16 The person who strays from common sense
will end up in the company of the dead.

17 Those who love pleasure become poor;
those who love wine and luxury will never be rich.

18 The wicked are punished in place of the godly,
and traitors in place of the honest.

19 It’s better to live alone in the desert
than with a quarrelsome, complaining wife.

20 The wise have wealth and luxury,
but fools spend whatever they get.

21 Whoever pursues righteousness and unfailing love
will find life, righteousness, and honor.

22 The wise conquer the city of the strong
and level the fortress in which they trust.

23 Watch your tongue and keep your mouth shut,
and you will stay out of trouble.

24 Mockers are proud and haughty;
they act with boundless arrogance.

25 Despite their desires, the lazy will come to ruin,
for their hands refuse to work.

26 Some people are always greedy for more,
but the godly love to give!

27 The sacrifice of an evil person is detestable,
especially when it is offered with wrong motives.

28 A false witness will be cut off,
but a credible witness will be allowed to speak.

29 The wicked bluff their way through,
but the virtuous think before they act.

30 No human wisdom or understanding or plan
can stand against the Lord.

31 The horse is prepared for the day of battle,
but the victory belongs to the Lord.

Talking about Solomon.... all i can say is...
pick your partnar carefully...
Tho its a freedom for you to choose anyone...
there's a reason why we should get someone of the same belief...

... i was sharing something about relationship with a married choir member.. and i admire her boldness and guts to approach guys.. lol... the truth is nothing will happen if you just sit and do nothing...
i can only pray for chances...heheh....

2008-08-26T20:31:00.002+08:00

PRAISE GOD! i found my access card.. God answers quick prayers too...

After struggling to wake up at 5am for morning prayer meeting for the past 2 weeks... i must say i've done okay...went for 6 days only.. it feels like i haven't been really sleeping for a week... gotta work, special item prac, making syl's graduation gift , 3 days of hair dryer-ing it.... it feels like sat service was very long.. i was there from 2pm to 9pm when i reach home i was still drying that sword-cross thingy... when i was painting it, it was only dried on the surface... when i spray paint it, the spray paint barely sticks on it... kana scolding from dad for more paint-spraying in the morning... as tho theres not enough challenges for a night... someone broke my cross before service while criticizing it.... i was seriously on the verge of tears... but i'm sure she didn't do it on purpose and i din wanna make her feel even worse... but i was SUPER disappointed with myself... i could have done better... its not even about being a perfectionist... its my own personal standard.. ANYWAY... with a brain thats malfunctioning for a week... i think i'm pretty smart to come out with the idea to scotch tape the entire thingy to make it look like i did it on purpose.... well now the truth is out.... it was broken thats why....

Thank God even tho i din sleep at all on sat, i was still able to stay awake throughout the entire sun service... for a moment i tot i was about to faint.. this is when you know you are really relying on divine strength, its also divine to have two rows of scotch tape in my bag - like what are the odds....

hehe.. i was very blessed on sun too... my cgl top-upped my ez-link card which can last me for 2 weeks lor.. not 1... and another cg member blessed me with lunch money... i wanted to go home earlier to sleep actually...but anyway THANK YOU..

Thank God for a good rest! when i reach home, i took a quick bath and slept for 14hours... 6pm-8am... skipped dinner... its an achievement.. for some its the total amount of sleep they have for 2 days, some 3 days, some 4 days which is very unhealthy... you'll start spelling muslim as muslin and still laugh about it like you're dream-talking... its a serious matter.. like some mental-illness...

I love Charlie Chaplin~ i grew up watching it...
and i dun think i have bi-polar disorder. but i've notice it alot in arts geniuses. you can go wiki about it....To me, A True Artist makes ideas into reality; they make things happen; and through making it emotions and passion are involved.. those that gives ideas, simply just talk too much.. can get kinda annoying actually....

2008-08-26T14:56:00.004+08:00

this is the song the choir and bvs sang for the pastor kong's surprise birthday celebration item during service on sat. For those who missed it.... Sorry! we were told not to mention anything to anyone... but i did ask some of you to watch it online.. well they might put it on the attributes website... on wed, hopefully you'll be able to watch.. http://store.attributes.com.sg/tv.php its free.. no need to pay one....

Here you go to pastor kong,

You Are My Hero - Dennis Jernigan

I've seen you stand alone and face the fight
When others laid their weapons down
And headed for home
I've seen you face the fire and come out shining like gold,
And i want you to know....

I've seen you lay visions down for someone else
And give your life as a sacrifice, no fanfare around!
I've watched you weather storms that would have left others drowned,
And this is what i've found.

You are my hero, my knight in shining armor
A warrior of God's grace, standing alone faithfully!
You are my hero, you're a light that pierces darkness
With love that's not afraid to fight for someone like me,
Encouraging me to stand firm and free!
You are my hero! X2

I've seen you look down the road and see beyond
The miles and head for truth in faith while bearing a load
I've heard your anguished cries for grace and watched joy unfold,
And i want you to know

You are my hero, my knight in shining armor
A warrior of God's grace, standing alone faithfully!
You are my hero, you're a light that pierces darkness
With love that's not afraid to fight for someone like me,
Encouraging me to stand firm and free!
You are my hero!

I've seen you face death with a deep burning faith
That stirs up the passion in me!
Your heart, like a fire, abounding in grace,
A beacon helping others to see; help set me free

2008-08-16T17:29:00.004+08:00

Our mind moves very fast but our heart takes time to settle in.....
and sometimes in Singapore when the moving pace of every individual is very fast
i'm guess i'm like that too, i get impatient too...
So when i pray i like to speak slow, when i read the bible, i read slow... to absorb it in the heart, to speak from the heart...

Zion is a place, (not the bookshop, thats the answer i got when i ask someone, hohoho)
It is originally the name of the fortified hill of pre-Israelite Jerusalem; poetically extended to refer to the religious capital of Israel. Some can call it City of David. aka. Mount Zion.
Its a place where God of gods shall be seen.

In ancient time.. its a place in the middle of the desert, to get there, people would need to pass through the Valley of Baca... Baca is japanese means idiot. but in this context, it is the valley of Weeping... some didn't make it through, forgot whats on the other side of the valley, but those who made it through, like which ps 84 said, blessed is the man whose strength is in You, whose heart is set on pilgrimage (a long distance to achieve something of significant - you may want to think about the journey in "journey to the east (or is it west?, dunno)"). As they pass through the Valley of Baca, THEY MAKE IT A SPRING; THE RAIN ALSO COVERS IT WITH POOLS. THEY GO FROM STRENGTH TO STRENGTH; EACH ONE APPEARS BEFORE GOD IN ZION.

Have you ever felt so sad, so disapponted, and you cried so much you can feel God's hand holding onto your cheek, wiping your tears away? i look at my skin, and i can't help it but to cry, i dun like to show it to people because its really terrible and you'll be in shock. and God told me "its okay, I love you." And yesterday during the morning prayer, i was praying and God showed me this verse,

Isaiah 51, i kinda prefer the NLT version

"Look up to the skies above, and gaze down on the earth below.
For the skies will disappear like smoke, and the earth will wear out like a place of clothing.
The people of the earth will die like flies, but my slavation lasts forever.
My righteous rules will never end!
Listen to me, you who know right from wrong, you who cherish my law in yout hearts.
Do not be afraid of people's scorn, nor fear their insults.
For the moth will devour them as it devours clothing.
The worm will eat at them as it eats wool.
But my righteousness will last forever.
My salvation will continue from generation to generation.

Wake up, wake up, O Lord! Clothe yourself with strength!
Flex your mighty right arm!
Rouse yourself as in the days of old when you slew Egypt, the dragon og the Nile
Are you not the same today, the one who dried up the sea, making the path of escape through the depths so that people could cross over?
Those who have been ransomed by the Lord will return,
They will enter (Zion) singing, crowned with everlasting joy.
Sorrow and mourning will disappear, and they will be filled with joy and gladness.

I, yes i, am the one who comforts you.
So why are you afraid of mere humans, who wither like the grass and disappear?
Yet you have forgotten the Lord, your Creator, the one who stretched out the sky like a canopy and laid the foundations of the earth.
Will you remain in constant dread of human oppressors?
Will you continue to fear the anger of your enermies?
Where is their fury and anger now?
IT IS GONE!

Soon all you captives will be released! Imprisoned, starvation, and death will not be your fate!
For i am the Lord your God,who stirs up the sea, causing its waves to roar.
My name is the Lord of Heaven's Amries.

And i have put my words in your mouth and hidden you safely in my hand.
I stretched out the sky like a canopy and laid the foundations of the earth.
I am thge one who says to Israel,
'You are my people.' "

and so on and so forth...

This is what the Sovereign Lord, your God and Defender, says
"See, i have taken the terrible cup (cup of terror which brings desolation and destruction, famine and war) from your hands You will drink no more of my fury. instead i will hand the cup to your tormentors, those who said, 'We will trample you into dust and walk on your backs.' "

Yesterday it was a great time of encountering God during cell group meeting, and i wanted to share this verse but somehow i was stopped and somehow i got a gentle tap on my head again, i was reminded of the verse again and God said "You are My people. What are you afraid of? Where is all the fear, fury and anger? IT IS GONE! So come to Zion with singing. With everlasting joy on your head. You shall obtain joy and gladness. Sorrow and sighing shall flee away. You have the capacity to achieve more, listen to Me, be of good cheers, I'm with you"

With that, how can you say God doesn't exist? How can i even ever have a single doubt?
How can i not listen to Him and obey?
How can???

2008-08-14T19:00:00.006+08:00

hehe... i think this is a LONnnnnggg overdue entry...

Anyone saw that movie "Journey to the center of the Earth" ?? i must say its really an interesting movie... i would have really loved it 10 years ago... But after the movie i was kinda sad.... dun be mistaken, the movie ended it well but i just wish i was a little more excited about it like novi.. You know how its like when everything seems to be possible when i was a kid... when anything you think of is feasible. Now that I'm old enough.. somethings you know its just impossible...

Then I've come know Jesus, and he said, with men it is impossible, but with God, all things are possible. God builds faith and courage in us to dare to dream again... its exciting to see impossible things being made possible and I'm getting a little bit impatient now... This must be the driest season I've ever felt this season... even my skin felt the dryness... scratch scratch scratch like some drug addict....

BUT GOD!!!! its okay~~!!! Soon i'll feel Your rain... i'll be soaking up in You again....
i'm going to be more prepared this coming year... i'll be ready when the time comes...
i put my trust in You... and it takes ALOT of guts for me to say this public annoucement...

I'M GOING SOT NEXT YEAR~!!!!!!

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! <- you know how girls scream....

I know it's gonna clash with my exams... but with SOT in mind, i've already chosen all the easy courses this year.. absolutely, totally no econs... i know the year after i'm going to suffer but this year .... i'm not going to fool around with my studies.... i'm not going to sleep during lesson time... i'm going to cut down on my spending from now on... still got building fund to plan... aiyo... how not to start planning now... and i don't wanna wait anymore.... Wait Wait Wait Wait until when? Tell me.....
... when the time comes the world would have come to an end...
.... Jesus would have came back....
i know i have the capacity to handle this, its about time to exercise my faith yo...

i'm still considering if i should take the CREST course (a must-take course for property agents)
and i know after taking the course there'll be a WHOLE LOT of work ahead of me... still got practical leh.... meaning i'll be earning real $$ selling really real property.... that i really need to wait after i graduate... if i wait for SOT till then.. 2011 CREST course 2012 wait wait wait.... AHHHHH!!! HOW CAN???? i'll be 25 by then... time to get married loh.... HOW CAN??????
i've already told my mom... after i graduate, i won't need anymore allowance from her... i'll give her allowance instead.... SO with ALL the wisdom in the world... you know next year is the year.. <<--- trying to reason with myself....

but seriously... wait wait wait wait until when ????
angry already lah.....

from now till the beginning april 09.... i have 7 months to save up... my last chance to enjoy high end fine dining would be on my birthday... hohoho... all the more i can't have parties...

V^^V victory is going to come my way...
for now i need healing~!!!!!

2008-08-09T23:12:00.001+08:00

i have a very important announcement

i must tell you this secret!!!!

Only those who is reading this now can know

that

there is NOTHING in this world

I SAY NOTHING.

IN THIS WORLD

that can compare

to

MY MOM's COOKING~!!!!!!!!

Wahahahahha......

Be it good or bad, i grew up with this acquired taste. No other person on this earth can create the same taste like my mom did... i know someday i'll miss her cooking... but before that someday comes......as much as i can, i want to eat everything that she cook... (screw those fats)
and BRO!!! i'm not sorry for finishing that last bowl of shark's fin soup :P afterall you ate 8 years of mom's cooking more than me....

I should probably start learning how to cook from mom... hohoho... but the only problem is... She's too fast and i'm too slow.... and i'm better at western food :))

EXCUSES~~~!!!!

Anyways.... Many friends have been really excited about planning an event for their 21st birthday. As for me....
i guess on my 21st birthday i don't think i wanna spend it with anyone else other than my mom alone... i prefer something simple... something quiet... but with my mom around its not going to quiet... and we'll have dinner at the korean crystal jade at taka... Hopefully its good...
Definitely i'll order the ginseng chicken soup... Muahahhah..... i better start saving up $$
Hmm... and also one of my birthday wish is to buy some clothes for my father and brothers ... cause the LOKE boys have really weird sense of fashion... they are capable of looking better.... maybe for my mom too... but the thing is... she wears my clothes too... i should buy clothes for myself instead :D hehehe....

EXCUSES~!! yet again....

Money money lai lai lai.....
FA CAI ARH!!!!!!

2008-08-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

In order to promote healthy sleeping habits
i've decided that i'm gonna stop using my laptop after 12 midnight....
..... and also to keep my laptop in better conditions
i think i've over used it in the office*sayang sayang*

Now its the time to say Goodnight and may you dream of heaven tonight :))
I'm sure i just did....

2008-08-04T16:56:00.003+08:00

We are free~~~ WO OH OH OOOO... WO OH OH OOOO.....!!!
WOO!! Told you the last night of FOP will end with a BLAST!!! I thought i'll be able to see mosh pits... hahah... but that would have been too high already....I'm so excited that Hillsongs are playing songs from their latest album, and the best part was when both drummers from Hillsongs and Parachute Band were synchronising, playing together.. i means its just crazy lah... both their skills and techniques just complements.. i've never seen such amazing team work.. What can go wrong when the presence of God is in the house yo!
at the end of the day i din want them to leave...(i'm just wondering if they're gonna put the whole event on DVD... ) and i really wanted to talk about them all night and just as i thought i'll be going home alone.. I saw this talkative person from choir... He outshone me in the talking part and i finally got his name right :P

Yesterday i really went to FOP with really high expectations and i wasn't disappointed...
pastor Mark Conner started preaching. He said that we should not put our emphasise on the things of the world, always wanting to gets more entertainment, possessions and prestige BUT cherish things of eternal value, and that is to Know God, to Love His people, putting our time, talents and resources in serving God and His people. During which he mentioned something that i took for granted and that is we treat people on the value we place on them. I must admit that i'm guilty of that and it affects the way i treat each individual... Jesus places a 10/10 on everyone, regardless of the value others put on Him.

The ultimate act of worship is obedience. God i know You're watching, i know You're listening.... and i'll obey Your ways... I can't control the people around me, i can't control the things that are happening... but i can control myself, my attitude, my respond to people. honestly, i have the tendency to just ignore the situation if it gets too tacky.. I'll try to change.... :D <-- my last attempt of stubborn resistance....

oh well... LET THE EARTH RESOUND WITH PRAISE/ FOR OUR SAVIOUR GOD HE REIGNS/ HE IS HIGH AND LIFTED UP /ARISE/ FOR THE KING OF GLORY WAITS/ HE IS COMING BACK AGAIN....

2008-08-02T22:39:00.003+08:00

Haha... i think i left off pretty.. Painful?

oh well... i guess i'll be fine...

I just came back from NDP preview... after all these years, i only like the fireworks part. i was checking out the goodie bag and i saw a magazine featuring Sun and Dayan..4 page cover story and the pictures are very cute.. its about time for such recognition tho... i mean after all the things she did, some celebrities didn't even do much to get on a 4 page cover story...

yesterday's FOP was good too... Reuben Morgan played "This is our God" LIVE!!!! the drummer playing it was good... and for a moment i was wondering why is he playing that song then i realised that he wrote that song... how slow can i get.. I'm hoping that they can play Desert Song.. heheh... but its all good...

i guess i was too tired to feel all the hype but i'm sure the last day will end with a blast...

Anticipate.... Anticipate...

2008-07-31T02:24:00.004+08:00

Am i a human still
How can i not feel the pain?
when flesh and skin is all ripped apart
my only wish left
is to get drunk is Your presence
Praying for You to take away all my pain
Take me away with You Lord
Are You crying with me tonight
I know You can feel my pain too
I'm sorry to break Your heart again
I'm sorry that for a moment i lost my trust in You
Jesus, You're my healer, my potion
You're all i need
You're more than enough for me
Nothing is impossible for You
Your strength is made prefect in my weakness
I yearn for a touch
I yearn for Your comfort
Like a spoilt kid, can i just show You my wounds
and tell You that it hurts a lot
How can anyone see it and not feel disgusted and run away from it
even i feel like running away from it
Hide me now under Your wings
Cover me within Your mighty hand
I can cry out for Your name all night
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
BUT GOD, You remain the strength of my heart
and my potion forever
You're more than enough for me
You are all i need...

2008-07-29T22:58:00.004+08:00

YOU threw out the life line
just in the nick of time.....
1. You're a dream come true...

2008-07-29T18:36:00.012+08:00

This is the new album from Hillsong and it entitled: This Is Our God. I would have bought the DVD/CD version instead if i had the $$ but anyways this is good enough for me. I think i'll listen to it for awhile... inside it says... "In every season. You are my healer. Jesus." Can i hear a amen from someone? Anyone? AMEN! Haha...
For those who are seeking healing today, for those who can't see healing coming yet, don't give up seeking, don't give up waiting... If you're willing to, wait and seek together with me until the day it comes and prepare to rejoice and declare His name.
This song Healer is written by Mike Guglielmucci who is suffering from cancer. and i believe that "You're more than enough for me, Jesus You're all i need."

HEALER

YOU HOLD MY EVERY MOMENT

YOU CALM MY RAGING SEAS

YOU WALK WITH ME THROUGH FIRE AND HEAL ALL MY DISEASE

I TRUST IN YOU

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MY HEALER

I BELIEVE YOU ARE ALL I NEED

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MY POTION

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME

JESUS YOU'RE ALL I NEED

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU

YOU HOLD MY WORLD IN YOUR HAND.

DESERT SONG
THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE DESERT
WHEN ALL THAT'S WITHIN ME FEELS DRY
THIS IS MY PRAYER IN MY HUNGER AND NEED
MY GOD IS THE GOD WHO PROVIDES

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE FIRE
IN WEAKNESS OR TRIAL OR PAIN
THERE IS A FAITH PROVED OF MORE WORTH THAN GOLD
SO REFINE ME LORD THROUGH THE FLAME

I WILL BRING PRAISE I WILL BRING PRAISE
NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL REMAIN
I WILL REJOICE I WILL DECLARE
GOD IS MY VICTORY AND HE IS HERE

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE BATTLE
WHEN TRIUMPH IS STILL ON ITS WAY
I AM A CONQUEROR AND CO-HEIR WITH CHRIST
SO FIRM ON HIS PROMISE I'LL STAND

ALL OF MY LIFE
IN EVERY SEASON
YOU ARE STILL GOD
I HAVE A REASON TO SING
I HAVE A REASON TO WORSHIP

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE HARVEST
WHEN FAVOUR AND PROVIDENCE FLOW
I KNOW I'M FILLED TO BE EMPTIED AGAIN
THE SEED I'VE RECEIVED I WILL SOW

2008-07-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

So Today Are you feeling dry because you've been boiling
....... Or are you feeling dry because you're just evaporating?
:))

2008-07-22T11:14:00.003+08:00

Someone once told me before that Without love, its not hate. Hate is to not love. Without love is indifference. No feelings. I always hear this verse "Being on fire for God". But how do we actually know that we are "On Fire"?

So i kinda picture every individual as kettles, being "On Fire" means being on the stove - the water will be boiling... i think in the spirit, when we're on fire, our spirit man will be like boiling water; Untouchable (hot mah), with lots of energy, very excited for the things of God. In wikipedia, it says, boiling is a type of phase transition. That includes melting, freezing.

Needless to say, when the kettle is freezing, its in the freezer - dark and cold. Most liquid freeze by crystallization, in which mass transfer of a solute from liquid solution to a pure solid crystalline phase. i remembered one of madonna's song called frozen, it says "You're frozen when your heart's not open, you're so concerned with how much you get, you waste your time with hate and regret, you're broken when your heart's not open". It's pretty obvious right?

i notice there's another phase transition called evaporation: it is molecules in the liquid state spontaneously become water vapour. It's neither boiling nor freezing. It's just vapourising. In the Word it says, rev 3 "i know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. i wish that you were one or the other! but since you are like lukewarm water, neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth." Basically its like, time slowly eating up on whats left in the kettle, by the end of time, it'll just be just empty. I've met people who are very indecisive and halfhearted, uninterested. It's like speaking to a rock.. no reaction.

Of course we are not kettles/pots... we're more like earthen vessels, molded by God. Let us not remain lukewarm, lets us clinge onto the fire of God, even when it boils out of water, don't panic, Stay in the presence of God, have the faith that the holy spirit will pour down rivers of water into your empty vessel, to fill you up once again, God's grace is sufficient to pull us through. We don't have to wait for special guest speaker to come to be on fire, we don't have to wait for the latest praise and worship song, all the more we don't want to let circumstances to change us.

For now, i'll just pray that whoever is reading this will make a decision to be burning for God once again. Regardless of what you've gone through, regardless of what others have done to you, have the faith to trust god again.
No one ever said its gonna be easy....
... and i pray that i'll also do the same.

And i told you, pastor tan said the same thing last sun...
Walk The Path of the Straight and Narrow! :))

2008-07-17T02:46:00.002+08:00

39. HATI HAMBA

KU TAK DAPAT LUPAKAN
(I can't never forget)
KEBAIKAN YANG KU T'RIMA
(The goodness that I've received)
PENGORBANAN-MU YANG MULIA
(Your holy sacrifice)
JADIKAN KU BERHARGA
(Has made me worthy)

KAU TULUS MENERIMA
(You've willingly accepted)
AKU APA ADANYA
(Me just as I am)
KEKUATAN KASIH-MU NYATA
(The power of Your love is real)
MEMULIHKAN HIDUPKU
(It has restored my life)

KAU BUKAN TUHAN YANG MELIHAT RUPA
(You are not a God who looks at appearance)
KAU BUKAN TUHAN YANG MEMANDANG HARTA
(You are not a God who looks at wealth)
HATI HAMBA YANG S'LALU KAU CARI
(A servant's heart is what You are always looking for)
BIAR KAU TEMUKAN DI DALAMKU
(Let it be found in me)
S'LAMA KU HIDUP KU MAU MENYEMBAH-MU
(All the days of my life, I will worship You)
S'BAB ENGKAU SANGAT BERARTI BAGIKU
('Cause You mean so much to me)
YANG TERBAIK YANG ADA PADAKU
(All the best that I have)
KUPERSEMBAHKAN KEPADA-MU
(I will give it to You)
YESUSKU
(My Jesus)

44. KU KAN TERBANG

Firman-Mu Tuhan p’lita bagi kakiku
Janji-Mu terang bagi jalan-jalanku
Kebenaran-Mu menuntunku s’tiap hari
Kumenantikan-Mu beri kekuatan baru

Ku ‘kan terba-ng tinggi di awan
Bersama-Mu dalam kemuliaan
S’bab firman-Mu teguh menopang
Ku ‘kan aman dalam-Mu Tuhan

Jalan-Mu di atas jalan-jalanku
Rancangan-Mu melebihi rancanganku
Firman-Mu sungguh t’lah membebaskanku
Berjalan lebih tinggi, berjalan bersama-Mu

Your word in my life, is a lamp unto my feet
And Your love shining brighter deep into my heart
Your truth in my life brings me closer to Your strength
I will give You praise, with all of my heart i will sing.

And i will fly high above the clouds
Riding the sky lifting Your glory
Let all the earth watch us live in love
Praising Your name Fly along with You

And Your ways always higher than all my ways
And Your plan rises high above all my plan
And Your truth sets me free from all of my chains
Let me walk within your truth
Let me fly along with You

48. DALAMNYA KASIHMU

Dalamnya kasih-My, Bapa
(How deep is Your love, Father)
Terlebih dari s'galanya
(More than anything)
Pengorbanan yang termulia
(What a precious sacrifice)
S'lamatkanku
(That saved me)

Dengan darah yang tercurah
(Through the outpoured blood)
Ampuniku atas dosa
(My sins have been forgiven)
Kubersujud kepada-Mu
(I bow before You)
Oh, Yesusku
(Oh, my Jesus)

Engkau kusembah
(I worship You)
Kau yang terindah
(You're the most beautiful)
Pulihkanku dengan darah-Mu
(By Your blood, You restored me)
Engkau kusembah, Bapa Mulia
(I worship You, majestic Father)
Seumur hidupku
(As long as i live)
Ku mau menyembah-Mu
(I want to worship You)

49. WALAU SERIBU REBAH

Tiada Pernah Kuragukan
Kasih Setia-Mu Ya Tuhan
Setiap Waktu Dalam Hidupku
Tak pernah Kau Tinggalkan

Meski Langit Tampak Suram
Awan Gelap Pun Menghadang
Hadapi Badai Lewati Gelombang
Tak Pernah Kau Tinggalkan Diriku

Walau Seribu Rebah Di Sisiku
Kau Teteplah Allah Penolongku
Walau Sepuluh Ribu Rebah Di Kananku
Tak Kan Ku Goyah S'Bab Yesus Sertaku

Mercies that rise with the new morn
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment i live
With You i'm never alone

Darkness may come Trails seem so long
You are the light i depend on
Through valleys and storms
Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You

Everyday i live i know You are my God
I lift my face and look to You my Lord
Even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall
I will stand with You
My Jesus, take my all

2008-07-15T23:50:00.007+08:00

WHAhahahahhahahahah
Guess what? (i'm so in the singing mode now)

I SAW MY PRINCE CHARMING AGAIN!!!!! (just the look, just the look)

what is this man... this is crazy...
i almost forgot about him..
the third time i see him again i'm going to ask why is he always wearing all black whenever i see him.. assuming he's going to wear black again.. the most obvious answer i can think of is, thats his working attire.. and he ends work at 10?

this time round sylvia saw him too and she agreed with me that he's very stylish..... and very cute! very angmoh-chi-jap-kor kind of guy.. What can i say? Will i see him again? Hallelujah!!!

i'm going to have sweet dreams tonight and i'll end this with
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHahahahahhahahahah
GOD, whatever You say God..
whatever You say...

2008-07-09T02:25:00.002+08:00

I STILL WANNA GO TO KOREA FOR MISSION TRIP!!!!!
Why cannot go? :((
i'm already planning to borrow $$ from my bro....
Still why don't allow me to go???
:((
Pray! Pray!!!! Pray!!!!!!!!

2008-07-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

You know what?
God work MIRACLES when you're serving...

well this week i gave my attendance for choir and actually i should be serving just expo alone, but since there's no bible study today, i volunteered to serve at jurong and fly to expo to sing after serving. Guess what? I'm the only person flying over...Didn't expect that.. but at least there's one choir IC- Frankie flying over to attend service.. You know at least we can divide the cab fare...
So after serving for the first service, we were waiting for cab.. and we waited for a good 20mins and there's none available.... But Thank God we waited... First we saw this drama guy Lucas, he was waiting for a cab too (to clementi for cgm) then he hook us up with another two guys Alex and Kenneth (i think) who were flying to expo too.. one serving, the other attending and the one serving can claim cab fare.. so in the end... i didn't have to pay anything.... Muahahhahah...
because we waited for too long, in the end we called for cab.. and Lucus and another cabbing guy managed to board on a Merc taxi, after flagging for so many normal taxis which are taken, in my opinion its worth the wait.

At the end of the day, i saved a lot from cab fare, found new friends and as i search my bag, i found just enough coins for a Jasmine Tea from the vending machine... The taste of it.. is like a taste of heaven... Heheheh,... ironically.. its the Heaven and Earth brand...

P.S the cab fare was i think about $37 (including peak hour + booking)... and initially i only prepared $20 for it... :P

2008-07-03T06:02:00.003+08:00

Nightmare!

Last night i dreamt about someone planning to kill me. hmm... some crazy girl.. and i kinda knew it was coming and i let her... Weird, i should have fight back tho... but good enough i am still alive when i woke up...

I guess all the girls in church were rejoicing after Pastor Tan's sermon last week. Or was i the only one? Muahahahahah...
After all the "why is he not suitable" kind of questions i get... WAH LAH!!!!! This is the reason why! But of course its not all about relationships, i think it really places the big word PURPOSE into perspective. I like how its phrased: God is uncreated. Wow... That alone would have rebuke thousands of religions in the world... "The light came into the world and the darkness could not comprehend. " This verse reminds me of the story when Jesus healed a man who was born blind. The blind man said, because of Jesus, he was blind and now he see. And he talks about spiritual blindness: John 10:39 "Then Jesus told him, " I entered this world to render judgement- to give sight to the blind and to show those who think they see, that they are blind." Its one of those rhema word i got when i first join the church that kept me going. Back then i tried to share it with someone about this but i thought i would have sound silly, because its too logical for the other? It like Car parks are for cars.
When people don't understand God's purpose, in times of tragedy, people lament and blames it on God.
But if we do understand, keeping in mind God's intentions, we'll find an ever-loving God in the bible.
i believe that God is building me up every single day.. However strong i am, God is still the pillar of strength i lean onto.

Now i'm just going to take a short nap before the long day ahead of me.. heheh... ZZZZZzz....

2008-06-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

HAHA!! I was taking a short nap on the train and when i woke up.. i saw something that gave me a shock.. i saw a guy sleeping with his mouth open... but because his face was kinda long, his eyes was kinda slanted downward... he look like this...

SHOCKING! but after awhile it looks kinda amusing.. i wanted to take picture but something wrong with my phone la... aiya.. nevermind.. Honestly, i'm not exaggerating... Just that he's more dark skin.. not so white la...

2008-06-25T00:12:00.011+08:00

Recently, i got really disgusted by somethings.. Just as i tot that the shit had hit the fan..
God really made my day really beautiful today...
I woke up today with my hair falling in the right place. i din have to struggle alot to style my hair... even tho my face was dry, it wasn't very obvious unless you look up-close.
My boss suddenly spoke really causally with me.. Which is REALLY RARE!!!
I was travelling home from choir practice and at raffles place i met MY MATCH. just someone almost like the dream guy i've been trying to explain to people. He carries a black messenger bag very manly kind.. then slowly i realised that he wore all black.... very stylo-Milo.. I LIKE!!!!!!!! Gee! He looks somewhat like me.. but a lot cuter because he was well-built and not too skinny... JUST NICE!! Wee WO WEE!!
But Thank God, i don't know him, for all i know he might be a heart breaker - probably got a girlfriend already.. so cute, how not to be surrounded by girls? he's probably a designer or a hairstylist..very libra kind of person. (i think i'll fall for libras... anyhow....) very korean-chinese kind...i think he's 184CM... REALLY MY DREAM GUY LA... but if he talks and start speaking its another story la..who knows he might sound like micky mouse...
I'm Satisfied Just Knowing That Such A Person Exist.
May God BLESS him...

just for your information, i'm not usually like that... He's really very special looking to me..
And i'm very stingy with my praises... so if i say he's shuai... HE'S REALLY SHUAI!!!!!
Muahahahhahahahaha!!!!!!!
ps:: he looks NOTHING CLOSE to BaeYongJoon (and dun you think he looks like the chinese ver. of Harry Potter?)

2008-06-19T11:46:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was quite an eventful day for me... (PRIMARY SCHOOL ESSAY LEH!!!) BUT IT WAS TRUE HAPPENINGS!!!!
HAhaha... anyway, i went rollar blading with prettygirl and it was only an hour it started to rain,.. by then both of us fell down like ample of times and thinking that we might have blueblacks for that... YOU'RE WRONG! hahah....
so when the rain stopped, we decided to cycle instead = see floor slippery + beginners = dangerous... little did i know that i got the most injuries out of it...
HAH! firstly that bicycle guy gave me a bic with faulty brakes, and i was try to speed up once because there was a cart coming in a opposite direction on a single lane... since i can't u-turn on a bic, i got nervous mah... i was accelerating the bicycle and my feet slipped off the pedal and it hit my right leg... so now the back of my right leg got this huge OR-CH-AIR... then later on east coast park almost became a crime scene..
i was, yet again, speeding up with prettygirl to see who reaches McDonald's first... she's a good girl, she used the bicycle track... and i dunno what i was thinking i took a short-cut... just so happen that its so near the blading practice area... i was going diagonally towards there when i slipped off my pedal again.. and this innocence guy on skates just came off from the practice area... on high speed i tried to brake but I CAN'T... so we head-on.. BANG! he fall backwards onto the grass safely.. i flew off my bike and landed on the ground.. WOOOOO---wee... now i got OW-CH-AIR like everywhere... on my head, my arm my leg, all on the left side.. as though nature is calling for a balance.. the biggest blood clot i've ever seen is on my left knee.. the size of MY fist.. not yours so no need to check..
THANK GOD.. there was no blood involved and its a good reminder to me that with a vehicle comes great responsibility...thank god, You made me realised how reckless i can be even before i'm behind wheels..
Walk the path of the straight and narrow...

and i just realised that its McDonald's not MacDonalds.... i hope no one notice it on the brochure... :P

2008-06-17T10:09:00.003+08:00

------PURPLE LINE--------
What can i say, their singing just improves day by day..how can they dance and sing so well both at the same time... its so obvious that they don't lip-sync... anyway.. changmin's voice is so strong in this perf... he knows how to project and draw back this voice at a perfect timing along with the song... perhaps the only flaw is that he sounded too loud and din blend well with the rest... but still...you can tell all of them got the acquired skills and i'm just so drawn to it... goodness.. they got every changing note right... like thats the most challenging thing for me they made it sound so natural... FLEXIBLE BOYS... and Jaejoong.. this guy.. he's amazing... he can hit the note so high even i can't reach... and for your info i'm a sorprano... even if i can, i din sound as nice and as strong and hold it as long as he did... i'm just CAPTIVATED~~~~

2008-06-12T09:56:00.005+08:00

too bad you can only watch this on youtube. I got this video in my laptop..HD version. Hohohohohoh!!!! This is the best Rising Sun performance i've ever seen. the fireworks is kinda annoying tho. i saw it so many times i even know the dance steps v^^v. and they peformed it so many times, they can only get better...
visual impact = they call it visual shock
I wish i can dress all white like them too. 화이팅!!!! ai 수 있다 !!!! 준수씨 사랑해요! ㅋㅋㅋ

2008-06-12T08:46:00.003+08:00

"A man with an experience is never at the mercy of a man with knowledge. "

i'm always in a situation whereby people like to share their knowledge when my experience surpasses what they know... i hate to argue... but sometimes when i get tired of not listening... i'm pretty good at debate... :)) BUT don't worry, its a rare sight for me to get angry... at least thats what i think... i'll usually run away even before i snap off at anyone... V^^V

NATO - No Action. Talk Only

If you're from this planet NATO. Don't talk to me...

I guess i woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something.. wasn't feeling satisfied about anything. but someone told me something i find amusing...it kinda made my day.. this girl from my office said i look like Bae Yong Joon.. LOL... Me and BYJ?? i don't see the similarities girl.. i felt so insulted, but its too funny to feel insulted. When i told my mom that, i felt there's a weird stare from her as tho she's scrutinizing my face for the first time.. Hahah...

anyway i kinda like his recent drama.. The Legend.. i like it how its not like those typical romance drama..

HAHAHA.... WHY???? why does he look so comical to me??? LOL... he should try comedy dramas....

LOL... now with this picture i think he looks like my brother... LOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLL!!!!!!!!

2008-06-07T03:01:00.002+08:00

Korea Mission Trip...
$1500...
No money...
I can only imagine...

2008-06-05T01:53:00.008+08:00

its always a challenge to remember names... and i really dun want it to be an excuse for me to forget names... i've made a promise to myself to remember every single person's name i've asked... its gonna take some time... at least i remembered that SOT student who sat in front of me yesterday.. she's called Shannon... hahha... but i forgot her face :P

anyway what i really wanna say is... i was having my 1 hour prayer just now, prayed about everything. above all, i prayed for passion. one thing i felt that i'm lack of.. the passion to design, the passion to serve, the passion to sing... with passion, whatever you do, you do it with joy, with urgency, urgency to progress.. And suddenly it reminded me of a choir guy called Hexing? can't remember :P but you can really tell he's passionate about singing. he's telling me that wherever he goes he'll sing. in the toilet, on his way home, early the morning... and he's so happy about it... it's as though its written all over his face "I'm a singer" I can really SEE the passion in him. and when i do a self-reflection, i dun think i'm as passionate about singing as him... and i really want to be...
There's this singer called Kim Junsu, when he was going through puberty, his voice was changing and he was unable to sing. So he actually cried his heart out and prayed about his singing , and basically he just kept trying, kept practicing for years and now he's one of the best singer in korea. whenever i listen to his songs, i just felt very encouraged and some times i'll get goosebumps.. its that good alright... and i must admit that i can't sing well, and i really need to keep practicing like him and really PROJECT MY VOICE!!! and sometimes it gets very tiring to keep trying...
BUT GOD!!! i'm not going to give up... :)) regardless of how long its going to take I'll Keep trying... even until the point of breaking down, i'll still keep on trying... V^^V
and its not to proof that i'm perseverance but really to be able stand before Jesus and offer my best.

2008-06-04T14:19:00.002+08:00

chchchchch...CHANGES....

woohoo.. i just lost another kg... triple checked :))
I'm DELIGHTED to start work again!!!! Now at propnex... its great to see the same old faces... Hahah... even the boss look more friendly now. in a way i'm glad that i dun hold an identity as strong as the rest in the company. otherwise i would have felt very guilty for betraying dtz...

this month i'm really financially tied and ThanK God for His blessings, provisions and ideas.. its always more than enough, ever refreshing! recently i've been visiting a friend in the hospital... felt very sorry about it... in a sense the last time he told me he was in the hospital, i actually thought he was just kidding. I guess i had a hard time trusting people in the past. He's never really a serious person, always joking around, yah even on the hospital bed.
i always think that the happiest person would have the saddest story to tell, otherwise he's really a clown. Which is the next saddest thing to be sad about. everyone should have a close friend whom you can pour out your feelings to.. Someone who doesn't judge or run away, avoid you or disappeared like some friends i used to have... i got bumps and bruises finding close friends... and i'm glad to have 4 now...

Finally i understood the true meaning of matt 10:40-42 “Anyone who receives you receives me, and anyone who receives me receives the Father who sent me. If you receive a prophet as one who speaks for God, you will be given the same reward as a prophet. And if you receive righteous people because of their righteousness, you will be given a reward like theirs. And if you give even a cup of cold water to one of the least of my followers, you will surely be rewarded.”
- Servanthood! We are ought to serve one another. There's no divisions or hierarchy in servanthood...
I believe that every thing on earth created by God, serves its purpose with good intentions and its situational.. Two effects produced in the mind by God's word - Light and Understanding. A highly educated mind is a fine instrument - just like a sharp knife. it can be misused. People uses knowledge to justify there own ways. Reasoning. Excuses. God's ways are higher and not everyone can conform to it. We want to be right all the time. but really by just admitting our own mistakes is one step closer to God's way... it's one lesson i've learnt long time ago.. i just hope some day my brother would understand that....

and i hope he knows that TRULY.. i'm very proud of him.... :))
He's the reason why airplanes can fly. Whenever i'm in church early in the sunday morning for choir call time, i'll see SIA planes taking off.. and i'll always have this thought in my mind.. my brother is working right now, he should have checked that plane... Cool~~ everyone should have a safe journey~~ i've never said that to him because he's too arrogant for praises... Hahahha...
Please be humble bro!!!! and Stop Complaining!!!! You can be so much more than who you are right now...

2008-06-04T12:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Yoochun! :))

2008-05-30T14:38:00.003+08:00

Taste this medicine of God's Word for yourself - simply through listening with faith to God's Word

Proverbs 4:20-22

"My Son give attention to my words; Incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your eyes; Keep them in the midst of your heart; For they are life to those who find them, And health to the flesh. Keep your diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life."

Psalm 107: 17-20

"Fools, because of their transgression, and because of their iniquities, were afflicted. Their soul abhorred all manner of food, and they drew near to the gates of death. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them out of their distresses. He sent His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction."

Christians fail to receive healing remains a secret. A secret known only to God and not revealed to man. It is not our concern. We only need to be concern with the things which are revealed to us. Prov4:23 what is in our hearts controls the whole course of our lives and all that we experiences. If we receive God's word with careful attention; If we admit them regularly both the ear and the eye so that they occupy and control our hearts - then we find them to be exactly what God has promised: both life to our souls and health to our flesh.

2008-05-29T18:16:00.003+08:00

THIS IS A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO NOVI YANSI FOR BEING LATE ALL THE TIME WHEN MEETING HER.
aRHG!!! I don't even wanna talk about what happened.. just felt like an idiot today. Just today... i'll let you call me Irresponsible brat. ONLY TODAY!!!! no more after 12 am.

Anyway.. YOU KNOW I'M SORRY NOVI!!!!!! Love Ya! Cheer Up! I won't do it again! :))

2008-05-25T05:05:00.004+08:00

what can i say... This singer is a super romantic guy. Definitely the perfect gentleman. Not just because of the songs he sang, but rather the actions and thoughts he gave to his girl. if only i could meet someone like that, my whole world would rejoice and i'll be dancing for 30 days and 30 night... Hahahhah.... Whatever~~
Anyway, with a voice like his, even a cold heart would melt...
just listen...

Alex (Clazziquai) - 화분plant

He is approaching, from a far far far distance
How am i to express my shaking heart

He stole my heart from the very start
and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from
i want to become a flowerpot

I pray all the time
I want to become a flowerpot that stands on his small window sill
Even if i won't be able to say a word or expect anything
From time to time, i'll receive his smile and caresses
And just watch his sleeping face

He's leaving very far far far away
How am i supposed to soothe
these falling tears

He stole my heart from the very start
and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from
i want to become a flowerpot

I pray all the time
I want to become a flowerpot that stands on his small window sill
even if i won't be able to say a word or expect anything
from time to time, i'll receive his smile and caresses
and just watch his sleeping face.. (repeat chorus)

2008-05-23T06:44:00.002+08:00

Do you know why planes can fly?
Thrust, resistance and lift? even before that..
it is because there was someone who didn't think it was impossible.
The silly thought of putting people inside a tin can and send then aloft to the heavens, for those whom believe that it could really be done - has made it a reality.

SO i'll stop saying things are impossible.
and strive to become the best.
in any case, i'll do what i can do now.
from now on, no matter what happens, i won't give up trying...

2008-05-23T02:23:00.004+08:00

Always be my baby

Ar.. i'm in love with... DAVID COOK...'s voice...
Gosh i can never sing like him.. it would have been very weird..
i just hope Mariah Carey's version wasn't that cheerful..
Its a nice song anyway...
You'll always be a part of me....

2008-05-22T22:42:00.003+08:00

RISE UP.... waiting for rising SUN~~~~~
Chon man...?? Oh YAY!!! Its True, Exams Are Over!!!! Muahahahahahhahah!!!!!
Nothing special tho. i wish i were more prepared. i think i need to start preparing to pay for my own school fees. My own failure is my own problem. The extra burden is on me... and Jesus..
i guess i'm just trying to say that i'm losing confidence.....

RISE UP!!!!!!

2008-05-16T16:46:00.009+08:00

Spoiler Ahead!!!
for americas next top model cycle 10
and the winner is ......

she's the first plus-size or the correct term full figure model to win antm and she's REALLY beautiful, beautiful from inside out like what she said... i'm just so happy for her... :D SEE ANY GIRLS CAN BE BEAUTIFUL.... even when you're not super skinny.. :)) Work It Out Girls!!!

2008-05-16T04:59:00.015+08:00

An Uninvited Guest
(Warning! the following pictures are not for the faint-hearted. I'm sorry if its too disgusting, but someday you might just encounter it. hahah)

i thought a transparent lizard is disgusting... but guess what i think this is worse...
i was at my desk and i thought i saw a dirt within my sight... at first i thought its just those usual hair dirt that clumbles together... but when i look carefully at it... i saw this

the moment i saw it, i KNEW WHAT IT WAS... i was shocked and DISGUSTED!!!!! BUT THEN after a while.. it looks kinda interesting... i had to clear it anyway.. so i was kinda flipping it around with a toothpick to see if its ikan bilis or baby lizard..

ITS A LIZARD AND YAH!!! and there's ants feeding on it already.... i mean HOW ON EARTH DID IT DIE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROOM? i don't wanna believe that i stepped on it.. its decaying as tho its been there for days... BUT NO!!!! i just saw it only... my guess is that the ants found it at the corner of the room and was trying to transport it to somewhere... HOW CUTE!!!!!

i actually wanted to work in a pest-control company a few years back as part time but my skin won't allow so... i'll just control the pest at home.... i sure know where all the ants, bugs, lizards, flies are hiding... bugs that come into my house alive will never stay alive...

Alright lets talk about something cute... i was just clearing/ rearranging my desk and found something interesting... from PomPom...

cute huh... it a pencil she bought from China... too cute to use it... Then i found something SHOCKING!!!!

This picture is a secret between the both of us... Enjoy!!!

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!

Is he/she someone you know ????? v^^v

2008-05-14T17:36:00.003+08:00

its very painful to watch the news nowadays...
i can't even imagine to be in their place..
no one would wanna get caught up with natural disasters..
to see the neighbourhood completely destroyed, people, children dying.
are we getting desensitized by the number?
i hope not.
when there seems to be no way, God will have a way
and all i can do is to pray...
May Peace Be With Them...

2008-05-14T14:50:00.006+08:00

Yippy! i could finally "legally" use my laptop. I use it to study socio and ibm... hehe 3 down, 2 more to go and this is how much i need to know for my next 2 paper..

I've got more or less 5 days to finish at least understand the theories and stuff... To be honest, most of pages are repetitions of the same theory so if you summarise it... i dun think there's THAT many stuff to study...

i think that's how i should look at problems sometimes. I remember the other time i broke down when i thought i din have time to study. its really times like this when God really hit me hard on the head telling me , "Look At Me!" As much as i want to say i'm strong, i had no idea how weak i was. I looked at the problem without even trying to conquer it and declared my defeat. It's when i'm weak, it shows how strong God is. And i really need to learn how to depend more on Him. By doing all that i can, doing my best, i know God will do the rest. i'm kinda disappointed with my econs paper actually.. but when i look at my maths paper, it was such an easy paper i can confidently say i can score at least 75/100. i was just so encouraged once again. i believe that the papers are just going to get easier and easier... HEHE..

2008-05-14T02:10:00.003+08:00

i'm disappointed and yet encouraged.

because there are two poles of differences,

we learn to appreciate.

good and evil is just a fine line apart.

now that i'm found, i could see how lost i used to be

and yet another problem came unnoticed, undeterred.

how should i know until someone blurt it out so brutally

i was blinded and now i see

i used to train my heart not to cry

and now its just flooded with tears.

i'm still struggling to be a better person each day.

i hate to think that i'm an embarrassment

All i could do is to laugh about it.

i hate it that i can't put it in words

and the abstinence to express my feelings and thoughts

i hate to think about my failures

i even hate not to think about it.

i write out a list of 10 reasons to hate you

but ended up writing 11 reasons to love you.

after all that is done, i'm still motivated

because there's One who gave me strength and courage.

because there's One who choose to forgive and love.

Out of that i've learnt,

My Lord Jesus,

I can't even imagine days without you.

but could only imagine the day You walk beside me.

What will i do, what will i say.

will i dance or will i go on my knees

or will i just stand still in awe

and be captivated by your beauty

You expressed love so freely.

and made it come so naturally.

I'm not the best of anything

and yet was chosen to be part of You

What lies ahead of me is ever-changing, ever challenging.

i'll never be prepared, i'll never be ready.

Come What May

I put my trust in You.

Despite all that is done

I would only want to please You

My Lord Jesus.

2008-05-12T16:13:00.003+08:00

What i'm gonna do after exams...

*Tidy Up My Room/ Working Area - Throwing away junks
Project A
*Research On The Art of Fashion
*Design clothes
Project B
*Research On Human Faces
*Drawing and Painting
Others
*Exercise - Jogging/Swimming
*Piano - Level A
*Bible Study - foundation truth 1
*Work - DTZ/ wherever JG went to
*Activities with Friends

BACK TO MATHS.............

2008-05-12T01:28:00.002+08:00

One Night Exam Break!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

i dreamt about this guy twice now i dunno why its so weird... anyway i think he's Chinese. I'm like too shy to converse.. half avoiding half anticipating. not very tall. In my first dream, he was just singing in some gathering and i was seating there mesmerising.. :)) In the 2nd one when he appeared i got a shock, i was with my cg and eventually everyone knows that i'm interested in him. i was so embarrassed and the next thing i know i'm in a setup dinner with him.
Thats All... Interesting huh.

I'm not desperate!!!! he's practically my dream guy HAHAHAHHA!!! i think he resemble someone i know... HAHAHHAHAHAH!!!

i had another weird dream.. 5 years ago i dreamt that i've got a hit in MTV and it was called #1 drum lady.. this time it was a nightmare.. i was on my way to church expecting to attend the 2nd round of bv audition... when it was my turn.. Belle was chasing me out because i wasn't supposed to be there... Ouch!!! 5 years of difference from hopeful to hopeless...

Its great being in the backstage... you see all kinds of people.. everyone from various ministry, special guest and the most exciting part is to see pastor Kong.. He's got this aura that attracts people. its like a beauty that comes from the inside that made the outside charismatic and its something i need to learn.. like my goal this year is to be a beautiful person both on the inside and outside.

one thing i've learnt today. Nothing Is Impossible; Impossible Is Nothing.

2008-05-09T16:14:00.002+08:00

WikiHow - How to deal with foot cramps!

I was reading on one of the tips, chewing on a banana my mom gave me and i saw this

"Muscle cramps can be a result of low potassium levels in the body. Eating foods rich in potassium, such as bananas, can increase the circulation to the heart and muscles. "
Amusingly and Unknowingly preventing foot cramps.. haha..

Thank God its Friday!!! i need a rest... after having two consecutive papers in a row happens to be surprisingly stressful...

on my way home i saw this guy... Very unique and cool. with this Japanese mafia puffy combed back kinda hairdo... my goodness... his face is so SMOOTH.. so white... so clean like the guy version of snow white... so smooth you can't even see the pores... How can a guy be so neat and tidy and delicate. make me feel so manly.. so jealous. i almost thought he's a lady.
When will i have flawless skin??
Don't ask me why i scratch? i supposed its like an addiction.. it's hard to quit... almost a natural instinct now.. itchy.. SCRATCH!!

i finally agreed with yr that "Fat" is a cursed word... Deu 32:15.. Moses sang: "you grew fat. you grew thick. you are obese!!" Sounds harsh huh?

2008-05-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

It was a miracle day for me!!!! MIRACLE!!! i barely slept last night as i was preparing for the most dreadful test ever - Introduction To Economics... Honestly.. its a lot more than just introduction... but anyway... It was sure a miracle i think i was almost using Jedi Mind Trick.. I was using my brain power to the max!! and for 3 crazy hour during the test.. i could actually focus and was able to think!!!!?!!! I was so exhausted i was knocked out the moment i reached home...

MADNESS!!!! i almost blasted my brain today its so hard to start the momentum to study for the statistic paper tomorrow... Back to back action huh... i think i'll do fine for econs? i don't even wanna think about it now... Arh!!!! i can't even remember... but i know it was DREADFUL!!!!

BV audition~~ what to say.. i wasn't prepared for it. i didn't know what to expect and it's a lot more than just preparing a song i guess... the word nervous was written all over my face. i think i blew it this time. its like when you do a test, you know it when you did well or not. But its really a chance to put your guts and courage to the test.. but i totally forgot about being level-headed... well i can only pray for a second chance... Suddenly i feel kinda out of place.. as tho i've lost my direction to my goals.. So distracting... i saw this recently..

Emotions - Logic = Faith
Life - Dream = Job
it got me thinking about the choices i made again.
i think i need to start painting again~ the only thing i'm good at right now..
Get Inspired!!

i just saw American Next Top Model cycle 10, the 12th episode.. i was so surprised with the result!! A plus-size model in the Top 3. Yeah man, Break the traditon! Down with stereotypes! And Here's to plus size Model!!! Woohoo!!! You don't have to be small to be pretty girls!!! Well she's not exactly fat, just not the usual 0 to 2 size kind of model.. if you wanna watch... Go
Youtube!! :D

Alright thats all for today.. i should start study again!!
God makes all things New!!

2008-05-04T21:06:00.003+08:00

God Bless His Children.... and I'm no Superman!!

I had enough rest!!! and now it's time to PANIC!!!!! Arhh!!!! Audition... Exams... Arhhh!!!!

Its Mothers' Day next week. MOMMY, I LOVE YOU!!!!!

It's a miracle for the birth of a baby, more so for twin, triplets and quartets. I was watching Discovery Channel earlier on and they were showing "In The Womb"... My goodness.. Its just so amazing, fraternal quartets, 1 kg each.. they are premature babies because there ain't any more room in the womb.. Too Packed!! So they were in the incubator until they are able to breathe in their own. i was wondering if its like totally sound proof in the womb... 4 of them, wouldn't it be crying in the womb too?? JUST A THOUGHT!

STOP TRYING TO HIDE!!!! GOD SEES!!! He sees our every thoughts, every desires.. How to run away from him??? He is my praise, and He is my God, who has done for me great and awesome things which my eyes have seen. Jesus listens to our every prayer. Do you really believe in that? We're not superman! Stop trying to be like one and start praying!!! Its another season of growing!!!! Seat Belt buckle up... VROOM!!!! PUSH!!!!!

i lost 1kg recently... Woohoo!! FINALLY!! Jia You!! Ai Soo Ee Ta!!!! Hwaiting!!!
back to studies now... SHoo!!!!

Bang Bang!!!

2008-05-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

I just got Bangs!!!

Ahh!!! Shorter than i wanted it to be... i din want it at all.. but it was a happy mistake... not too bad... i would prefer it longer tho. Now i just need to dye it... Ho ho ho... AFTER EXAMS!!! Just so to have something to look forward to...

Oh yah!! a few days ago while traveling home from choir prac with some north-lander choir members, i managed to learn LOTS of lame jokes from them... 1 hour of non-stop laughter... We even managed to entertain some of the passengers...

I'll spoilt it if i mention it here.. i'll share it someday,... somehow...
Got to study NOW!!! NOW!!! NOW!!! GO!! SHOO!!!~~~

2008-04-29T01:31:00.002+08:00

the family tree!

My mom finally revealed some history about her love story.. nothing much, its so unusual to ask so i'll always say some weird question to trick her to speak up.. hahha... Here's a little history about my family:

My grandma married at the age of 14, that time my grandpa was only 21. she gave birth to my mom when she was only 17!!!! my grandma gave birth to 5. I never knew my grandparents on my father's side. all i know is that they're dead even before i was born. My dad is very much an introvert and doesn't like to share his problem or stories.. all i know is that he like to discipline.

Anyway i guess the reason why my dad loves my mom is that she always managed to make him laugh and make him smile. My dad hates to listen to the truth, and my mom loves telling the truth. They argued ALL THE TIME. It even makes me sick some times. My dad thinks that my mon is not as smart as he is and my mom knows that she's much more optimistic and sociable than my dad.

I LOVE MY MOM!!!!!! She's like the no. 1 super mom!!!! Jesus whom had changed me had changed my mom too.. She used to be VERY stern, WORSE than my dad (Yup, i spent my childhood around angry people) but now we just laugh at silly mistakes and share corny jokes.. gossip about my dad and brothers.. share clothes/ shoes.. well we're more like friends now that i've grown up.. but still very much under her control about my whereabouts.. Gee.. very traditional kind of person, like my dad. you got to know that they were born in the 50s, when everything was still sold in cents...

here we go:

My dad born in 1948, my mom 1950. they knew each other (through friends) when my mom was 20, my dad was 22. My mom said she was deceived by his look and it was the beginning of a nightmare... because at that time she never would have realised that after 30 years he would start the habit of collecting rubbish. I was kinda affected too for awhile. untill i made the policy of throwing things thats left untouched for more than two years...

anyway i forgot to ask when they got married but my eldest brother was born in 1977, my second bro in 1979. due to the gov. policy that says "Stop At 2" they really stopped at two.. Annoying!!! i would have came out earlier and have more siblings... then in the late 80s the gov came up with another policy "3 is just fine" So my parents had the last attempt and POP! i was born in 1987!! Hurray! at that time my mom is already 37 and she told me that she struggled alot while giving birth to me, due to her age and stuff.. her bones would ache, and probably result to her knee problem now.. come to think about it, i guessed she really went through alot making the person who i am today.. and i thank God for giving me a mom like her. Wouldn't be the same if its someone else.

my mom was saying if my brothers and i followed the traditions, she would have been a granny of 5 and each of them would help her to massage here and there and she'll teach ABC and sing 10 little indians...

as for me, i just wish to have at least a twin! hahah... should i start praying about it now? Don't laugh! Maybe God is telling me some serious stuff... honestly, i've been thinking about motherhood a lot lately... Arh!! And usually kids like to disturb me especially on the train. I just met one and he was playing with my new bag (someone asked if its branded, HOhoho!! nope) and he waved goodbye and said "Bye Bye Jie Jie".. Hahah.. SO CUTE! SO SWEET!!! he was like a baby~~ Totally made my day!!

Stay Healthy

2008-04-27T21:44:00.003+08:00

Stay Healthy Peeps!

i guess you dun hafta watch the weather forecast to tell that the weather is getting hotter these days.. i knew it the moment i switched on the air con (which hasn't been operating for the past 6-8 months) 2 weeks ago.. WEATHER'S CHANGING so everyone please be responsible to your health. Don't go around and spread your virus/disease. Take Care!!!!

My goodness, i was planning to go to school this morning and guess what.. both my ankles hurt so much i can barely walk around. I seriously need a wheelchair. In the end i gave up walking and crawled back to my bed. i honestly dunno what happened... my guess is that there's too much pressure acting on my ankles? in short, too heavy :((

many events happened these few weeks. many pple getting attached, getting engaged, got married, expecting, gave birth...and many pple asked and got me to think too. So i can't help but to think about when is it gonna be my turn to do all that.. i hope i dun have to wait TOO long, all i can say is, i will not settle for anyone lesser than what i expect. I'm not looking for a Perfect Super Hero or Prince Charming and its not as easy as just picking anyone who seems eligible in church/ cg. I guess i'll know when that somebody comes along... Just a thought :)) and i hope i won't chicken out. A few things i can be sure about is that: He's a male, a christian born within the year 1980 to 1987. Someone with good communicating skills and good facial complexion and a million dollar smile. Hahahha.... its just essential with good reasons.
On a side track, i find that moles are sexy. Not just any mole, any colour, any size, any where and all the more not about the number. i like the ones on my wrist, the one at back of my fore arm and the one below my ear on the neck. hehe perhaps i was an art student for too long and i just notice the details. The placings of it is the key. okay, i think too much.

Anyway, its not the main issue i'm most worried about now. Soon i'll be having exams and bv audition is around the corner. I pray that i'll be more than prepared.

Zone Outreach!

2008-04-26T22:19:00.003+08:00

My Burnt Nose

Zone outreach today! woohoo~ and we had sports! Arh!!!!! When was the last time i actually exercised on ground? 2 YEARS AGO!!! It was crazy hot today, especially the noon sun. It was burning directing on my face. i was smart enough to wear long pants not smart enough to put sun block.. In the end.. i got natural blusher on my cheeks and nose... with my small eyes and silly smile i can easily look as tho i was drunk. Haha..it was so sunny it became kinda dreadful at first, if not for the sun, i guess i would have played better in captain's ball. weird enough i dunno how i injured my ankle again, but i had fun anyways. With the superwoman skills.. me and syl managed to transform ourselves into choir entire and still look as cool even after those exhausting games..

My IBM lecturer is sick to have classes on Sundays. And he LOVES having sundays classes and i think.. IT'S A SIN!!! Hahahha,..... it would have been 2000years ago... the thought of skipping classes came into my mind but for the love of christ i know i shouldn't... FINE i'll go.. Not going to church on sunday is SO WEIRD!!!!

Be Encouraged`

2008-04-24T06:40:00.006+08:00

Encouraged!

Last weekend, i can safely say that the church was very blessed by Mrs Cho's preaching. I really wanted to attend both of her services.... BUT in my heart i know JW needed pple on sunday~ and i heard Him calling.. and i went~ the journey there was crazy!! Hahah with 7 choir members in a mini bus, we still managed to pull off a mini concert... its my first time so i'm pretty amazed. It's like on a mission trip, bringing the anointing from Expo to JW. during the praise and worship at jw, the presence of God was so strong, even the BVs knelt down, i mean it was just fantastic. After serving, i had lunch at the artist room, woohoo~~ it was so comfortable and honestly i felt like a VIP, i dun wanna leave at all. Haha, anyway SidneyMohede and his wife was there and he's like so down-to-earth, so chilled out kind of person... and I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PIC with him.. how i wish i can be as cool as he is.. later on i managed to hang out with the ICs for a while and even tho i was really tired and exhausted, i enjoyed every moment!

REVIVED!!!

2008-04-23T23:07:00.006+08:00

REVIVAL!!!!

I never thought i would ever blog again. But with the world is going crazy out there so its good to pen down some thoughts.... to preserve some sanity~ actually, its more for keeping track of my goals and achievements. I'll usually write it on my schedule book but IT RUNNING OUT OF SPACE!!! So for the sake of being tech savy again ~ I"M BACK in action!!! v^^v

i haven't been blogging for the past one year and LOADS of things have changed! Cell group just multipied, I'm in Choir Ministry for 6 months already, having UNi exams pretty soon:: in fact in two weeks time and i'm trying not to panic, now part-timing at DTZ; a property agency, getting prettier (thats what pple say :P).... i was reading my previous postings and i deleted them all... haha except one... the day i lost my hp! i freaked my teacher out that day haha~

Recently, God showed me this verse and i felt very encouraged ever since:

Psalm 84 The Blessedness Of Dwelling In The House of God

1. HOW LOVELY are Your tabernacles, O Lord of hosts!
2. My soul yearns, yes, even pines and is homesick for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out and sing for joy to the living God.
3. Yes, the sparrow has found a house, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young--even Your altars, O Lord of hosts, my King and my God.
4. Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are those who dwell in Your house and Your presence; they will be singing Your praises all the day long. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!
5. Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man whose strength is in You, in whose heart are the highways to Zion.
6. Passing through the Valley of Weeping (Baca), they make it a place of springs; the early rain also fills [the pools] with blessings.
7. They go from strength to strength [increasing in victorious power]; each of them appears before God in Zion.
8. O Lord God of hosts, hear my prayer; give ear, O God of Jacob! Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!
9. Behold our shield [the king as Your agent], O God, and look upon the face of Your anointed!
10. For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand [anywhere else]; I would rather be a doorkeeper and stand at the threshold in the house of my God than to dwell [at ease] in the tents of wickedness.
11. For the Lord God is a Sun and Shield; the Lord bestows [present] grace and favor and [future] glory (honor, splendor, and heavenly bliss)! No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
12. O Lord of hosts, blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man who trusts in You [leaning and believing on You, committing all and confidently looking to You, and that without fear or misgiving]!

We should always be planted in the house of God. Regardless of the situation we are going through. God is the source of our strength, talent and ability. Learn to walk with God and trust in Him. Walking in confidence and confidence come by revelation. We will flourish in the courts of our God as we overcome the challenges. Every victories takes us up to the next level. As we have the heart that yearns and seek for God's presence earnestly, He will not withhold His blessings from us.

i've grown alot ever since i started serving in the Choir ministry (coupled with prayers and weekly bible study). Being in the choir itself is a miracle to me. With my own confidence i would never try out for the choir audition. it was really a HUGH step of faith for me... i've learnt to take chances. Pastor once said "Freedom means coming into your purpose of existence being lock into your destiny" and "serving will open the doors of destiny. " To serve, you need to have the anointing of God in your life. Those that are chosen are those who are always willing to be made available for the Lord despite being busy with schedule. The trials you're going through is proportional to the degree of anointing which is also proportional to how surrender you are to the Lord. Those with spiritual hunger for His presence; Prays~ and never take things for granted. your spiritual life will be blessed and your level of influence will be enlarged.

Words are easier said than done. Its so easy to trust in the Lord and yet so hard to be made available for the Lord. How to use someone who is not even there in the first place? Logically, He only use those who are THERE~ and it takes effort to be there... Where? YOUR DESTINY

be in season!!

2006-07-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

25 July 2006

Wah!!! Fed Up... i lost my phone is the cab... My only prized possession... i dun mind using the same old bag for years... and i dun mind wearing the same old clothes for years... i dun even mind using an ancient cd player.... but losing my phone is like cutting my flesh... it's that ONLY ONE THING i'm proud of.... how sad....Arrggg... i feel so poor right now... someone pls spare my some $$.... arms... arms....arms.... for the needy.... *** CRY*** okay i din exactly cried but i was doing maths while thinking abt my phone and Mr Wee came to ask me if i was having any problems because i looked kinda fierce.. lol... well wat can i say? I was PISSED!! That phone actually appeared in the movie Cellular.. it's a STAR PHONE!!!! OOh well... it's about time for a new phone anyway.... The only good thing that happened was the recent maths test.. i got 31/38... haha not bad huh... still not good enough tho.. but its good for a start..

Today... i started working on my final work for art.... i was doing some clay work.. its freaking tiring la...i dun want it to explode while firing it... i'm gonna pray about it everyday from now onwards... i've only got 2 weeks left to finish everything... and i need to finish my claywork by tmr... MADNESS...
On TOp of that i've got other assignments,...
I DUN EVEN HAVE TIME TO SLEEP...
I WANT TO SLEEP
which is what i'm going to do soon
but before that i've got
- GP reading card
- GP AQ and essay outline
- PHysics tut.
- Art: 2 sketches and 2 coloured pieces

and tmr i've got a MAths test(AGAIN)
well i love maths... which you can see i finish the tut. first... but test??
999... someone is trying to kill me....

well look at the time now....

Sigh~ What a vicious cycle....
i'm just going to sleep...i din even have enough sleep the previous night....

goodnight